Moving Right Along. . .

Wow, so much has been happening.

On Sunday, October 26, was my shower. I knew the date, but didn't know where or anything else. It was as wonderful and beautiful as I thought it would be. My sister and mom did a FANTASTIC job. I had a great time and Peanut got a lot of great presents. And, of course, I cried numerous times throughout the day. My dad's Donor Family came, which was a nice surprise, and also very touching. I will never forget that day, even though it did go by in a blur.

I thought my sugar levels evened out, but they are now all over the place. I bottomed out last weekend (both Saturday night and Sunday night, or should I say in the middle of the night). The first time I was so scared. Thankfully Frank was there with a steady hand (being an EMT helps) and helped me out. The second night I didn't wake him and I was able to bring my levels up alone. But since the, they've been all over the place.

I have had 2 non-stress tests so far Peanut is all over the place. He is definitely a mover and shaker. Next week I start my twice-a-week appointments - a non-stress test one day and a growth/biophysical ultrsound on another day. I'm excited for the u/s b/c I get to see Peanut again, and hopefully we will get an update as to when we can expect his arrival. I was already told that I would be having Peanut before his due date. We just don't know how early.

Other than sciatic pain, pressure, braxton hicks, and being tired all the time, I feel great! LOL

Pregnancy is nothing like I thought it would be, but I would not trade this experience for ANYTHING. I feel very blessed that I get to experience this miracle.

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

At seven pm local time, across every time zone, all are invited to join in lighting a candle in remembrance and honour of little ones loved and missed.

This blog entry today is dedicated to my lost babies (and embryos). Your daddy and I will never forget you and we will never forget the pain of losing you.

I have Gestational Diabetes

So, I never even made it to my 3 hour test. I took the 1 hour glucose test on Friday morning. I expected to fail (most women I know failed their 1 hour). but, I wasn't expecting to be told that i was being admitted to the hospital. I got a call at about 8:50 Monday morning telling me that I not only failed the 1 hour, but I was being admitted. The doctors' office cut off for passing is 135. My blood sugar came in at 343. No, that is not a typo. I have full blown GD.

I went to the hospital as a direct admit. Once I got settled in my room, they took my blood, I had an u/s, was put on fetal heartrate monitor and was finally given something to eat. I was told that my blood sugar was now going to be tested 2 hours after every main meal (b-fast, lunch and dinner) and first thing in the a.m. (before eating). I was also told that I was going to learn how to do this myself.

The good news is that the baby looked great and had a nice strong heartbeat. Also, all of my blood levels/electrolytes came back great. their only concern was my blood sugar. The doctors think that I could have had diabetes before I got pregnant and the pregnancy just made it all worse. We won't know for sure until about 6-8 weeks after the baby is born and we will test me again.

I was released from the hospital last night (after a 2 day, 1 night stay). Just before i was discharged, i was told that I was being put directly on insulin (apparently my sugar was so high that even pills and diet won't work). so, I give myself injections every morning, before dinner and before bed. At least I have experience in preparing the needles and giving myself injections! Oh joy! i am also on a 2200 calorie diabetic diet which is A LOT of food. In fact, by the end of the day, I am so full it is hard to get all the food down.

I am in shock b/c I was feeling great. The only "sign" that i was aware of that something might be wrong is that for the past couple of weeks I have been REALLY thirsty. Like I can't drink enough. My main concern now is doing what I have to do for Peanut. I know that the baby is only as good as I am since I am his main provider, but I will worry about me after the baby is born. My main concern right now is keeping Peanut safe. Starting at 32 weeks i will be seeing my doctor 2 times per week for close monitoring. 1 day will be on a monitor to check his heart rate and to check that I'm not having contractions. the other day is for an u/s to make sure he isn't too big (which is a complication of GD).

I am going to be strong to do this. I did have a minor meltdown in the hospital b/c a part of me thinks it's my fault. I was overweight to begin with and a part of me feels that I put my baby in danger. What the doctor tried to tell me was that even the thinnest of women can end up with GD. It is just a "side-effect" of pregnancy in some women. she told me not to be hard on myself and to know that I'm now doing everything i can for my baby.

I will get used to the shots and testing my blood. but, the thing that scares me the most is the diet. I'm still allowed carbs, but now I have to watch for and account for EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth. I didn't become overweight by doing this. It is going to be an effort for me to eat right. i know what I have to do, but I am scared to do it.

On a positive note: yesterday morning my fasting (first test in the a.m.) blood sugar came in at 190. this morning, after 2 doses of insulin, it was 157. I pray that things continue to get better.