It's been awhile . . .

I can't believe how long it's been since I posted. There have been a couple of updates. First, I started acupuncture. I know a couple of people have done acupuncture for infertility and it worked, so I thought I would give it a shot (no pun intended). I have only had 2 sessions, but so far I love it. It is very relaxing. It has also given me another sense of hope (at least a little bit).

Also, I have an appointment next week to meet with my doctor to discuss starting again. I think 5 months is a long enough break. I am tired of putting my life on hold because we don't know what is going to be. Frank and I would like to take a couple of vacations this year, but we don't know if we are going to be pregant or not, so those plans are on hold.

Am I scare to try again? Most definitely. I honestly don't know how I will react if our third IVF doesn't work, or if I miscarry again. I don't know if I will ever recover from that. But, the pull to be a mom is greater than the fear. I know I am stronger than I give myself credit for, so I will have to rely on the inner strength to get through this.

That's it for now. I will probably update again after my appointment.

Welcome

Hi and welcome to my blog. I decided to start a blog in order to write down everything going through my head.

First, a glimpse as to what my husband and I have gone through up to this point (I will try to be as brief as possible):

After ttc (trying to conceive) for almost 7 cycles, in January 2007 we had our first appointment with our ob/gyn. After running some tests, it was determined that we needed to see an RE (reproductive endocrinologist) i.e., fertility specialist. After our first meeting with them, we went on to have 2 cycles of Clomid plus IUI (intra-uterine insemination). These all resulted in no pregnancy. We then tried 3 cycles of injectible medicines plus IUI, which also resulted in no pregnancy. In June/July 2007, we went through 1 cycle of IVF (in-vitro fertilization). This resulted in a chemical/non-viable pregnancy (i.e., miscarriage). To say were were devestated was an understatement. In September 2007, we had our 2nd cycle of IVF. This too resulted in a chemical/non-viable pregnancy. We decided that we needed more time.

Which brings me to today. We are still on our break. I am trying to lose weight and will be starting acupuncture next week. I still don't know if we are mentally/emotionally ready to try again, but I'm also not ready to give up yet.

Thanks for keeping up with me so far. I hope you enjoy reading my blog.