Thursday, July 31, 2008

Things My Husband Doesn't Understand

There are things that my husband just can't understand about me being pregnant (heck, I don't understand it all either). But, I thought this list would give someone a chuckle.

1. My bigger boobies have a purpose and are not for playing. My boobs are getting HUGE! Well, huge for me anyway. And yes, they are a novelty. But, what my husband doesn't understand is why he can't play with them. Because they hurt! They are still store (some days are worse than others). My nipples are so sore that it even hurts to wear a bra. Of course, I'm probably not a help b/c there are days that I will walk up to him, lift up my shirt and say, did these get even bigger? Feel how heavy they are?

2. Why on some days even his breathing annoys me. He can't understand that my hormones are so completely out of control. Even if my "problem" is not logical, I still get upset/annoyed/etc. over it. There are days that I just want to go to sleep alone and he can't understand that his breathing in bed next to me when I'm trying to sleep drives me crazy.

3. How a person can have so much gas in them. I don't get it either. But, let's just say, that I could probably fuel a car across the country I have so much gas. He also doesn't understand why it is OK for me to expel it and not for him. My response - see #2 above.

4. How I just do have any desire to eat, especially my favorite foods. I don't understand this one either, but for me, it just is. He knows I USED to love chicken. But now, I can't eat it. It isn't like I gag from it, I just have no desire to eat it. I feel so full and bloated, that I don't have any desire to eat more than ice cream some days. Yet, he still feels the need to want to cook chicken for dinner.

There are just a couple of things that I can think of off the top of my head. I'm sure there are more. If you have any to add, just let me know!

Catching up

It has been a couple of weeks since my last entry, so I thought I would catch up in what's been going on.

Last week I had a trip (and an overnight stay) at the hospital. I hadn't been feeling great (it was very hot and humid here). By the 2nd day of feeling lousy, and having some pain in my abdomen, I went to the dr. They monitored me (no contractions, found hb right away) and then decided to send me to the hospital for some tests. Why the hospital? This way the results would be in a lot faster than if the same tests were done at the dr.'s office.

Off to the hospital I went. They hooked me up to a monitor again and did an ultrasound. Got to see Peanut - he waved at me and gave me a nice swift kick! They also drew some blood and then I waited. And waited. And waited. Finally my dr. came in and said that everything looked great. All of my test results looked good. BUT, they were keeping me overnight for observation. They wanted to make sure that it wasn't appendicitis. So, after a sleepless night in the hospital in the high risk unit of the maternity ward (sleeplessness was b/c people kept coming into the room for my roommate or b/c my IV alarm kept going off), I was feeling much better the next morning (except for lack of food and sleep), I was freed. We have no idea what caused me to feel the way I did (dehydration, virus, just being pregant?), I am feeling better.

This week Frank and I went looking at day care centers. We saw the 3 that are closest to us and think we made a decision. For now, this place will work for us. As our child gets older and our needs change, we might need to re-evaluate, but we both like our first decision (I asked for his opinion before I stated mine). We can't agree on a 2nd choice, but at least we like our 1st choice.

And, I'm starting to go through the Baby Bargains book and coming up with a list on what to register for. This is so completely overwhelming. I thought it was tough when registering for my wedding. This is nuts! Thankfully I have my sister, great friends and a wonderful message board of women who can help me with what to choose.

Next on our list is our big Level II ultrasound. I'm both excited and nervous about this. That is in 2 weeks. After that, we can register and start interview pediatricians.

As of the time of this post, I am 18 weeks and 3 days pregnant. NUTS!!

As for how I'm feeling - I get a lot of small headaches and I'm constantly tired. There is still some nausea, but nothing horrible. I do feel bloated and full all the time, so eating is still a challenge. And, every once in a while my feet start to swell. But, considering I'm pregnant, I feel pretty good!

Friday, July 18, 2008

Had an U/S yesterday . . . .

And, it looks like we are TEAM BLUE!! We are having a boy.

Well, we think we are.

The baby's heartbeat measured at 174 (nice and strong) and we have a VERY active baby in there. The u/s tech had a hard time even getting the h/b because Peanut was swimming all over the place. And then she moved the wand down and Peanut's legs were crossed at the ankles and his foot was covering the goods. After a couple of minutes, the tech said, It's a Boy and pointed it out.

When I look at the u/s picture, it almost looks like it is the umbilical cord. But, I've had dreams of blue, felt like it was boy, and did 3 of the Chinese Gender Predictors and all 3 came out boy, so I'm going with it. Our BIG Level II u/s is in mid-August, so I'm hoping all will be confirmed then.

No matter what the gender is, I really just want a healthy baby. Now it is time to pick names. We had a girls name all picked out, but we can't decide on a boy's name. Frank has a name, but I'm not thrilled with it. This is fine with me. Half of the fun is choosing a name.

I still have the Placenta Previa, but the doctors don't seem too concerned yet. I also gained 4 pounds which they are happy about (I had only gained 1 up until this point). I also don't think it was a complete 4 - both of my other weigh-ins were earlier in the day, so I had a couple of meals in me by now, plus snacks, plus lots of water. So, I'm guessing I only gained like 2 or 3 pounds in the past month. that's my theory and I'm sticking to it!

I'm feeling pretty good. I haven't had any spotting in about 2-3 weeks (knock on wood). It has been hot and humid, and I can't tolerate it like I used to. My only other complaint is that i am getting a lot of headaches. But, I was told that this is to be expected. I am growing and look further along than I am and that doesn't bother me in the least. I LOVE showing off my baby bump. It took me a long time to get here and I want the whole world to know!

US Transplant Games

This past weekend my family and I went to the US Transplant Games in Pittsburgh, PA. My father received the gift of life with a new kidney almost 5 years ago. This is the 1st year he participated in the Games. There were approximately 1500 althletes, all of whom received some kind of organ transplant. There were also some living donors there, as well as donor families. Then there were the the "spectors" - the families of the althelets and organ donors. There were easily a couple of thousand people at the Games.

I knew it was going to be an emotional weekend, but I did not expect to feel the way I did. Every athlete there was a winner. Some were given not just a second chance at life, but a third and fourth chance too. There was a woman who received 2 double lung transplants, and another girl who received 2 heart transplants, suffered 3 strokes and had to teach herself to read and write a couple of times in her life - and she wasn't even 18 yet. Both of these women even medalled at the games - swimming, running, etc. Then there were the donor families. Their stories made me tear up each time. These are the families that lost a loved one and in their time of sorrow gave the greatest gift of all.

My father hadn't been involved with anything regarding his transplant, except to contact the donor family. We met them once and they even came to my wedding (they are family now after all). But to see my father in his element was truly special. He was so excited to get to Pittsburgh that he was like Mario Andretti on the PA Turnpike. What a change in my father from 5 years ago. I am very proud of my father and was very excited for him this weekend.

The US Games are held every 2 years. Every "odd" year they are held worldwide. So, in 2009 - the Games will be held in Australia and in 2010 they will be held in Madison, WI. We are all planning on going again in 2010 and I can't wait.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

A Love/Hate Relationship

I have come to the conclusion that pregnancy is like a love/hate relationship. There are things I love about being pregnant, and things I hate about it.

Things I love about pregnancy:

1. the fact that there is a human being growing inside of me. It boggles my mind. It is hard to grasp the miracle that pregnancy is. I feel so lucky that I get to experience this. A part of me feels bad for Frank b/c I get this experience and he gets to watch it.

2. my taste buds are enhanced. Good food tastes even better to me. So far fruit is the thing I crave the most. I live that it is cold and refreshing.

3. getting bigger. I am already showing and I love it. Maybe b/c I waited so long to get pregnant that I want the whole world to know. And maternity clothes are VERY comfortable.

4. bigger boobs. I was never "tiny" but I love the fullness of them. So does Frank, but that's for an x-rated blog. :-)

5. morning sickness. OK, so I don't LOVE it, but to me it says things are working.

6. the hopes and dreams for my child. I love thinking about names, who he/she will look like, if it is a he or she. It is all still amazing to me.

Things I hate about pregnancy:

1. Increased sense of smell. Even before pregnancy, I had a freakish sense of smell. Now it is worse.

2. constipation. Need I say more. Bran muffins and colace aren't working. Next on the list - prune juice (anyone have any other suggestions?)

3. waking up in the middle of the night. If one more person says to get my sleep now b/c I won't have it later, I'll deck them. I understand that the baby doesn't sleep, and I am trying to get my sleep now. But waking up the middle of the night to pee and then NOT being able to fall right back to sleep does not make me happy.

4. not being able to take anything for a cold. Colds are hard enough as it is, but to have to suffer through a cold just plain ole stinks!

5. the constant worry. I don't know if it b/c of my history (previous m/c) or if I'm just a worry-wart. The part I hate the most about pregnancy is that I'm always worrying something will happen to my baby. I'm afraid that everything I do or eat is harming my child. The fact that I'm spotting every couple of days (still brown) makes me more nervous. I know I was told that it is common and the reason for it, but it still doesn't make it any easier. I just want to know that my child is OK and healthy.

Being pregnant has taught me to slow down. I used to go, go, go all the time, and now I spend most of my time off my feet. I know a lot of this recently is b/c of the spotting. And, no exercise for me either - doctor's orders. I really wish I were given permission to at least go walking, but I know that staying off my feet as much as possible is good for the baby. I will do ANYTHING for this baby.

Please don't misconstrue my complaints as actual complaints. Like I said before, I am so lucky to be pregnant. After 2 years of trying and 2 years of disappointments, it really is a miracle. Infertility changed my live forever and I will never forget going through that.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

NT Scan


I am 12 weeks, 2 days today. I also had my NT scan. This is one of the pictures from today. See Peanut waving to us? It was an experience I don't ever want to forget. We saw the baby kicking me, hiccup, waving to us, and just being a complete wiggle worm. We also heard the heartbeat for the first time. I wish I had a camera b/c Frank's face when we heard the heartbeat was priceless. I have never seen his face light up so much. It was so touching.
I was a little nervous b/c I had another scare last week (I've been slacking on updating my blog). Last Friday I had dark brown stuff on the toilet paper. It almost looked like tissue. We went back to the doctor ASAP that morning and had another u/s. Baby looked great. We were told that my placenta is growing and that it was covering the opening of my cervix. the doctor hoped that this would clear up on its own, hopefully by my 14th week, but this could go on until my 20th week. As long as everything stays brown, they aren't too concerned. I was told that this is pretty common. Thankfully, the spotting as stopped again (for now). I hope it stays this way.
So far the results we have gotten from the NT Scan are good - we were told the measurements are within the normal range, but we won't have answers until the blood test comes in. Also, I was told by my doctor that there is a 2nd part to the test, and that will be done at 16 weeks. So, I go back to the doctor in another couple of weeks for an u/s (they will do the 2nd part of the NT Scan, as well as measure the lining of my cervix) and then I will have another check-up.
Today was truly another miracle - I am still in awe. i can't stop kissing my pictures from today. I am already so in love with this baby!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

A small scare

I had my first real scare this past weekend. thankfully, all ended well.

On Friday afternoon, I started having cramps. I wasn't too nervous about them b/c I have been having cramps off and on all along (I've been told they are normal). But, when I came home from work on Friday, there was a brown discharge. I called my dr. IMMEDIATELY. She told me that it was most likely nothing, but it could also be the start of a m/c. Not the words I wanted to hear, but it could be a reality. she also told me to stay off my feet and that if I started bleeding heavy, to call back and meet her at the ER. If not, come in on Monday for an emergency u/s. I cancelled my dinner plans for Friday night and my BBQ plans for Saturday. In the grand scheme of things, this is probably for the best b/c it was in the upper 90's since Saturday (with the heat index it was over 100). Way to hot for anyone, let alone a pregnant lady!

Poor Frank - he had to teach a class on Friday and couldn't be here with me. I understand and didn't even think of him cancelling (unless the bleeding got worse). My parents came to my rescue. I almost wasn't going to call my mom b/c I didn't want to worry her, but I'm glad I did. She immediately said that she was coming over to stay with me until Frank came home.

The rest of the weekend there was still some minor cramping (not as bad as on Friday), and the spotting was slowing down. I spent the rest of the weekend in bed or on the couch. I didn't even get up to water my plants (Frank did that for me).

I went to the doctor yesterday for my u/s. To say I was nervous is an understatement. Thankfully, all was good. The hb was at 174, and Peanut measured at exactly 11 weeks. The new picture of Peanut was AMAZING - you can see the tiny little nubs of arms/hands and legs/feet. So cute if I must say so. :-)

My blood pressure was elevated, but after a few minutes, it went back to normal (I chalk it up to nerves). The scale was also 4 pounds less than it was 2 weeks ago (I'm happy with that). My doctor didn't seem concerned about the blood pressure, or the weight loss. She told me that I can't do any form of exercise for another couple of weeks, and I can come off the prometrium until my next appointment, which is next week.

Whew - what a weekend!!